Emotions like to play tricks.
They mess with your mind.
They dig into your heart.
Emotions feel a lot like lies.
Have you ever felt lost?
Trapped, like there's no way out?
Have you ever felt need?
The need to crawl out of your own skin,
and be somebody else?
I sometimes think that I am capable of thinking too much. Sometimes, my mind races with thoughts that can be unconceivable to a regular mind but to me a possible reality. People dream and cast their dreams aside as randomness. Deep thoughts that seem to burrow themselves inside ones mind with no hidden meaning. I dream, and I feel my deepest fears screaming out to me in my subconscious. Call me superstitious, call me crazy, but yes, I do believe that most dreams carry with them feelings that we sometimes can not bring to mind when we are fully awake and alert.
I am trying very hard to take things in life one step at a time, and I am trying even harder to learn what things to hold on to, and what things to let go of. I know it won't be easy, but I think the inner me is strong enough to fight off the nightmares, fend off the fears and start realizing that I can be truly happy. Nothing will ever be completely perfect and anything worth it's salt will take a lot of work, but I finally feel that with the help of some really good friends and their amazing advice, I can pick myself up from the wreckage that I feel I have become lately.
It may not happen right away, and it may not be an easy transition, but I am slowly learning to take it all in stride and let it all go.